My name is Sean Peyton Ross.I write this book for present and future generations to read while I still have enough mental capacity and memory to write it before my injury depletes me. I was basically a late term miscarriage born by c section at 6 and 3/4 months old. 5 times I should have died. I am and always have lived on borrowed time. I was kept alive in an incubator by the doctors until I weighed enough and developed enough to survive outside the incubator. I was always a sickly child and was small. The other kids beat up and bullied on me. All my life, through school where I excelled in academics I was beaten up and bullied on. I was put down by the kids who wanted to be bad and the rich kids who thought they were the last word in society. I was bullied in the Navy, In college, at work and in the State Defense Force where I spoke up for the troops and inadvertently caused 3 generals to be fi red after a mission of mercy from a tornado in my hometown started going awry. I had to leave the State Defense Force under duress from the Commanding General. I now have been black listed and no one remembers the good I tried to do while in uniform. I now live in fear for my family and myself. This book is to serve as a journal and as a warning of how diffi cult, cruel and ugly life can be sometimes. It also serves as a guide to those who read this book so that the readers will be able to learn from what I have written. It will inspire those who read it to try harder to improve themselves and the world they now live in. The world cannot advance as a people socially if we only dwell on the triumphs of yesterday do not know of or take heed of the sins and mistakes of the past.