The honeymoon with Jesus was very short-lived though; being differently viewed by his family for his religious beliefs, his life soon became a living hell. The resulting emotional torment led to involvement in Satanism, as well as occultism, and finally several suicide attempts. There was also increasing drug use through the 1980's. But along the way, he discovered some key stepping-stones to an eventual escape from the false belief-system: the Book of Enoch, the Kebra Nagast, and a book in the Salem Library called Jesus Died in Kashmir. This led him to seriously rethink religious beliefs that had strongly been held for over a decade, leading to final liberation. Life continues to be an ongoing adventure&challenge, but without the unnecessary baggage of a delusional belief-system.