Have you ever wondered what it's like to hear things that aren't there? Or believe things that aren't true? Perhaps you've questioned how someone with a good life could kill themselves. Or why someone with a severe mental illness would stop taking life saving medication. These are all things Ellen Northcott has experienced and documented. The Chaos of My Mind is a deeply personal book, written during Ellen Northcott's darkest moments and her highest highs. The writing is raw and confronting in its honesty, giving a rare insight into the fight to survive against a brain determined to die. The book delves into the struggles with accepting a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, and the battle with medication. Being a psychologist Ellen Northcott has the unique ability to contrast the personal experience, and the professional viewpoint. Ultimately this is a story of hope, of surviving the worst bipolar has to offer, and thriving. As the author writes "It is worth the fight."