Grief is a strange thing; you're crumbling, everything is crumbling, but you're hyperaware. It's as if everything is magnified, and you're shrinking.
I nod my head. Silence. In my ob-gyn's office, I am rational and quiet, composed. I can hear my doctor explaining that the fetus's heart has stopped beating. The "fetus." My baby . . . my fourth baby. The words seem to be flowing in slow motion. My husband, Clay, is arguing; insisting that we do another ultrasound. This can't be happening again. But it is, and I know my doctor is speaking the truth. I felt the void weeks ago but was too afraid to acknowledge it. Now it's slapping me in the face. It's exploding in my chest. It's seeping from me and drowning me.
This is my third of four miscarriages. It's the most traumatic, by far. It's also the one that wakes me up.
In 2021, Laura Fletcher founded Selah Fertility to address a deeply personal and deeply problematic occurrence in women's care: the commonality of "unexplained" miscarriage and infertility.
The Grace in Grief
is her breathtakingly honest story of her struggles with multiple miscarriages and the eventual birth of her second daughter. Through this book and Selah, the author leaves no stone unturned in the pursuit of arming women with the insights and power they need to optimize their health and their fertility.
Fletcher's readers will find a strong, empathetic, and well-qualified author who has endured the depths of some of the most difficult experiences and emotions any woman can experience. This is a gifted author with a deeply moving story who will change women's lives.